whitecaps24

I never thought I'd be alone, as alone as I am now. There is no other being, no other thing. Sitting without a chair, living without a purpose. There is only one answer, it lay with the razor edge. The grass grows for the ground the sun shines for the sky. I live for no one, except maybe myself.

There is no way out, his eyes hold me captive. Reading me, as if I were a petty magazine. Angelic features cloud my vision, I stand rooted to the spot. He's coming closer, I have no where to go. His beauty is fearsome, nothing can compare. Strong arms enclose me, cold breath tickles my cheek. The beating of my heart, the feel of his legs pressed against mine. His lips find mine, my lashes brush his cheeks. A new world appears, opened like a book.

I think about him. About his eyes, the way his hair falls in his face, how he loves me. The way he kisses me. His hand in my hair, the other on my back, his lips slowly meeting mine.

I hear his voice, I smile. He talks to me, I talk back. My heart is whole, he is happy. We're best friends, he can tell me anything. He has a girlfriend, I nod. He misses her, I cringe. They've kissed, I break.

Wind sweeps the dirt, a wave breaks the rock. its a long way down, there is alot of fear to block. Crystal clear water lay beneath, I watch the water flow. White caps all around, I really have to go. I don't remember telling, my legs to run and jump. But I was in the air, in my throat there was a lump. I screamed of course, I am not ashamed. I jumped off a cliff, for screaming I cannot be blamed. The water met my feet, I was submerged. Under that crystal blue water, then I emerged. Spluttering and spitting, I came to the top. Halfway down, I wanted to stop. I did it, I'm done. I can't believe I jumped, but it was fu